It's been quite some time since i wrote an entry. my life seems boring, yet tumultous at the same time. nothing happened, yet a lot of things are happening. this doesn't make sense to anybody else but me, but its ok i guess haha.
i went thru a few past entries, and realised that i haven't posted anything constructive, or happy, in a long time. my moods definitely need some lifting. haha yes i know, since when have i posted anything constructive? hahas.
actually im not really thinking straight cuz RnB is blasting in my room. i think i missed my speakers more than i miss clubbing. i just spent 20 dollars which i would normally spend on clubbing to play soccer. it was some charity soccer competition and proceeds would go to some charity organisation. for once, i felt that my money has been spent more meaningfully. talking bout clubbing, i decided to stop clubbing, for now. im beginning to see the senselessness of clubbing, yet inexplicably i still feel an urge to go. im sorely sorely lacking in female companionship. though this may seem very shallow and desperate, im not afraid to admit so. hey, we all need each other to get along rite? and thats de reason why a lot of people clubbing. i have since decided that my future other half is not gonna come from a club, and preferably clubs minimally, so why am i still feeling the need to go there? i realised its like a temporary reprieve for my current situation, but its getting pointless. so till i come to terms with this, and don't head to club like a drug addict dives for heroin, i shall stop clubbing. there, declaration made. haha.
to be continued...
(im goddamn hungry so im going for dinner now. hahas)